Evolving in Pursuit of What God Said

"Evolving in pursuit of what You said

If it all reveals Your nature so will I

I can see Your heart in everything You say

Every painted sky, a canvas of Your grace..

If the stars were made to worship so will I

If the mountains bow in reverence so will I

If the oceans roar Your greatness so will I

For if everything exists to lift You high so will I

If the wind goes where You send it so will I"

 

God is great & He has the power to change us to His will. Evolving & learning everyday to hear His voice. There's so much wisdom & peace I've missed out ignoring Him. There's so much beauty in His ways. & I learn more & more that it His through His grace that we can know peace & love. 

I've set a routine for myself where I wake up, read the Bible, work, gym, eat, watch some shows, listen to a sermon, sleep, repeat. Honestly, having a level of consistency & commitment to these things have really helped me develop a level of self-discipline & calm that I haven't known before. I attribute a lot of that to being humbled & practicing discipline by doing those things every day regardless of the things that get thrown in my path. It's been helping me stay grounded. Do you have a productive daily routine? 

 

Complete Surrender

I think in life, sometimes we try to hard to control things & the more we stress & try to control a situation, the worse it gets. I think it's important to breathe & completely surrender. You can't always control what is happening around you or undo something you might've done. I have regrets about things I could've done better given the wisdom I have now.. given the self-discipline & patience I've been forcing myself to learn in the past few weeks. Often times, we want to rush to prove people wrong without working within ourselves long enough. I realize that inaction sometimes is the best option & I know this is the case for me because it is forcing me to practice & further develop self-discipline & patience which I had not before. Refrain from succumbing to weak emotions; completely surrender to God to work in your situation. Things are not always going to resolve quickly or on my own time. Others have their own time and more importantly, God has His time. There is a time for everything under the heavens... a time to laugh, a time to cry.. a time to embrace & a time to refrain from embracing . I surrender my wants & ways to God's will, time & mighty hand. In my surrender, a huge burden has been lifted, & ironically, I have more control of my spirit & my emotions as a result. The flesh hurts, but my soul rejoices... because for the first time, I find the peace I was looking for in my surrender to God. & I know that through the surrender, I open up the door for God to work his miracles in my life. 

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Window of Worship > Window of Worry

So I was going through a phase this summer during which I had a lot of anxiety. I have amazing people in my life..I'm doing really well for myself at my new job.. everyone thought I was happy. I was blessed with all these wonderful things, but I did not have the strength to guard those blessings. I realize the things I've been through in the past really caught up to me and I had all these internal triggers and sensitivities I did not realize I had. I felt really intense about every little thing and I couldn't relax; I wasn't breathing. It started to affect my friendships and my productivity level. I was not in tune with anything, especially my spiritual life. The problem wasn't just that I had fallen.. it was that I was staying down. Then.. it hit me. I was floating around without anything to ground me and looking to all the wrong outlets to fix me, when really the strength to have faith that everything is good was within me.

Lately, I have been reading and meditating on the Bible every morning and every night - I didn't realize just how much wisdom and calm is in the scriptures that I had been ignoring for so long. More and more, I feel more in control of my emotions. I went to Hillsong last week and the message was about how in life, we can't always choose where we are - like a hotel, but we can choose what our view is.. Do you want a crappy view? Or do you want an ocean view or a skyline view? Similarly, do you want to look out the window of worry, or do you want to look out the window of worship? Life is all about perspective... Worrying leads to more worries which leads to one doing things that leads to more worries and comes back ultimately as worries. Worship.. being thankful, positive, having faith, being calm really only leads to more reasons to worship. I wish I had realized this sooner before I set off on a really destructive path for the past few months, but I am truly grateful for the moments I have been having in faith and to be on this soul-searching journey. Sad it took some hurt to get to the place of clarity, but I know that even though I've fallen, Jesus intercedes for me with the Father. 

"Humble yourselves, therefore, under the mighty hand of God so that at the proper time he may exalt you, casting all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you. Be sober-minded; be watchful. Your adversary the devil prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour. Resist him, firm in your faith, knowing that the same kinds of suffering are being experienced by your brotherhood throughout the world. And after you have suffered a little while, the God of all grace, who has called you to his eternal glory in Christ, will himself restore, confirm, strengthen, and establish you." 1 Peter 5:6-10  

Sea-ing Stripes

 

As much I would've loved to be getting away to a beach, I'm excited to spend the Fourth of July in NYC. I live in Long Island City, with a beautiful view of the water, and this year the fireworks will be from the East River, so I'm happy to say that I will have a first class view of the fireworks. Ironically, I very often don't spend enough time in LIC even though I live here. The most interaction I have with the people here is when I go to Crossfit (that is if I make it considering my crazy hours or the fact that I was sick all week. By the way, shoutout to Crossfit Gantry for all the fun challenges that happen when I do go). I can't wait to watch all the dazzling colors and lights from the boardwalk right outside my apartment. This definitely will be new for me. For the longest time, I spent my Fourth of July with my relatives who would light up thousands of dollars of fireworks in the middle of nowhere, Virginia. Now having spent time in the "real world" since February, I'm navigating how to create my own traditions. What are your Fourth of July traditions? Let me know on my instagram @elizabethjosk! 

I really wanted this Privacy Please dress. I saw it on Revolve only to see that my size was sold out! So I requested that revolve notify me when it's back in stock. They sent me a restock email which I noticed only two hours later (because of my work email constantly blowing up my personal email often gets lost in the dust), so naturally I freaked out until I realized that not only did Revolve notify me, they put the dress on hold! Now that's customer service. #thanksRevolve. I really love the stripes and think it's a perfect dress for a stroll on the boardwalk. Love how the dress is like kimono meets nautical stripes- a fusion of the east and west. 

I paired the dress with a vintage Ferragamo purse handed down to me from my mother and Vince Camuto heels. These heels are actually a summer must have. They're so comfortable and light! 

Blossoms and Bell-Sleeves

I woke up at 5am in the morning for my first shoot. It was drizzling and cold. I had worked until midnight the night before. I work in finance so I don't know exactly how much I'll be able to post, but there's just some things I learned that I have to take the time and discipline to do for myself. I am the best version of myself at work and in my relationships when I remember to take time to do the things I love, and I love fashion. My friend Chester wanted to take a shot of the last of the cherry blossoms in Central Park. It was ethereal. I think cherry blossoms, Sakura, are just so magical. They blossom only for a short period of time before the delicate petals fall off the trees. It reminds me to enjoy the things I find special in my life because very often those precious moments are fleeting..but so worth it. I kind of felt like a child fairy under the cherry blossom trees, spinning and prancing around in my flowy, bell-sleeved dress. I went for an effortless, just woke up kind of look (partly because I did just wake up), but I chose to play up the minimalist dress up a bit with my rose gold Burberry watch and rose gold midi rings that say, love, peace and hope. I'm really loving rose gold lately. The tones are very earthy, and I for one in Central Park, was feeling very one with nature (trust me, a random golden retriever peed on my coat). I've included pictures and links for where you can find the pieces I am wearing / similar ones down below. Hoping to post more and better things soon!